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How do we please God?


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I had the most incredible talk with God today. For the past few weeks, I have been seeing 1111 everywhere I went. Whether it was 1:11 or 11:11 or 111, it was all 1’s. I had been wondering for a long time what that meant and if it was from God. During my QT today, I was praying and telling him how faithful I have been and the years that I have spent sowing into furthering His kingdom, but I asked (complained) about how I wasn’t seeing any breakthrough in my finances, relationships, and physical healing. Then I moved on to pray about this 1111 I kept seeing. I asked Him what He meant by it. Then I was reminded of Hebrews 11. I thought to myself and to God “Isn’t that the faith hall of fame chapter?” Wait. It’s chapter 11. So I read through it out loud. Then I started thinking about the assurance of my faith. Then it hit me…Hebrews 11:1 is the definition of FAITH! It is that we are 100% sure of what we hope for as if it will definitely happen even though we haven’t seen it! I repented for having so little faith & started declaring that I WILL have all that He promised me and it WILL happen. Just training myself to be SURE of the things to come even though I don’t tangibly see it.

So how do we please God?

I would encourage everyone to believe by FAITH that the promises of God will happen even though you haven’t seen it. It says in Hebrews “without faith it is impossible to please him”. Faith is the ASSURANCE of things hoped for. SO, when we are SURE of the promises of God even when our physical eyes cannot see, it pleases Him!

 

 

Jesus, the way truth and the life.


I am terrible at updating on WordPress. I apologize to everyone for the very inconsistent amount of updates I post. Most of the time, I’m just going through my schedule and only when I sense something strongly in my heart, then I want to share, but then I forget, and move on with life. A lot of times when I do share, it’s new things I’ve discovered about God and my relationship with Him. I love sharing it because it truly is an outpouring of my heart onto these pages, an expression of my love for Him and telling others about it. This is, in a non-direct way for me to share the gospel. I guess that’s how the gospel is shared anyway – when a person has such a deep love for God and desires to share this truth with others. It’s purely being relational and desire for others to know about this wonderful and amazing relationship that we are so honored to have with a God that came down to earth to humbly live as a human and die on the cross to be that sacrifice and expression of ultimate love for us. Amazing! Sometimes, we hear it so often that we’re desensitized to the phrase “he came down from heaven and died on the cross for our sins…blah blah blah” and it’s almost as if we don’t even realize how profound that is anymore.

Last week I finished reading the book – Seeking Allah, Finding Jesus, by Nabeel Q. Literally, after reading, my eyes were WIDE open, heart pounding, “Jesus is the only way, truth and the life!” He became so real to me. He already is, but it was a good reminder. I started praying and declaring in my quiet times – “Jesus you are the only way! There can’t be any other way! This is amazing! You became the turning point that makes the gospel purposeful.” Without the death and resurrection of Jesus, our gospel wouldn’t be the powerful gospel it is today. So many religions believe in God but they don’t believe that Jesus is the way, BUT the reality is that He IS the truth and the way and the life. Nabeel shared his story so objectively giving factual evidence for both the Islamic and the Christian faith. By the end of the book, I became more solidified in my own walk with God.

Jesus is good. He is everything. That is all.

 

 

From Houston to New Jersey.


 

A lot of things going on in my heart. I had been thinking about what or how to write this entry for a while now but hadn’t felt the time was right nor knew exactly how to put into words what I was feeling – and I probably still don’t.

I’ll be leaving Houston November 7th after 4 months of being here to settle in New Jersey starting a new position with Agape House Church and Passion Quotient (PQ) coaching and mentoring company with Kung Li, affectionately known as Coach K. He’s an amazing life/passion coach that has a real ability to influence and encourage people of all ages to go after their passion in life. Just one conversation with him makes you feel so empowered.

I will be working for him by teaching/ministering and leading a small youth group of about 10-15 teenagers and hopefully start a young adult small group in the middle of the week. The other times will involve learning more about his company and being an advisor like him and marketing for his company by going to universities in the East Coast with YWAM New Jersey staff to put together events. Coach K works closely with YWAM New Jersey and one of the reasons why this opportunity was so attractive was because I had wanted to continue partnering with YWAM after being a part of YWAM Taipei for close to a year just before this. This organization is close to my heart. I will be finishing off my first year in NJ by taking a group of middle school and high schoolers into the mission field for about 2 weeks.

This position is part-time paid and the other half would function as a missionary in which I will still need to raise funding. Thankfully, as a missionary for the past year sent out from my parent’s church in Chile, they will continue to fund me monthly as long as I go back to Chile once a year to update the church on what I’m doing and encourage the members.

Well, T-5 days before I travel to NJ! I’m excited, nervous, anxious, etc for my move there but deep down, I know this is the direction God has called me to go. I’m going to miss being in Houston with my sisters but I’ve come to know that when God calls you to something, you do it. He will bless our obedience. This road walking with God isn’t always the comfortable route, but it’s the best option. When I finally found God 13 years ago, all I knew was that he was a God that answered my prayers and blessed me. As I’ve matured spiritually, I now know that it’s not just waiting to be blessed but partnering with Him in how he wants to use me to further His kingdom of love, grace, mercy, hope to those that need it. In partnering with Him, He blesses me more than I could ever know and I’m able to witness the favor of God on my life. After all, he is a GOOD GOOD Father.

Prayer requests: 

  1. For the past few months, I’ve struggled with emotional peace – mentally, physically, spiritually. Please pray for me to fully recognize and rest in His peace.
  2. More consistent sleep at night (which probably is related to point 1 – more peace each day means better sleep)
  3. Strong loving and supportive community in NJ – that I would quickly not feel lonely as I settle in a new environment and grow in a new community.
  4. That I would do well in this new position and grow in my confidence as a leader, rather than just a “student” as I was the past year studying in YWAM Taipei.

 

Transitions.


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Transitions are always intimidating yet exciting, anticipating what God has next. I really sense a shift in seasons for many people in the body of Christ and SO excited for what is to come! Although, there will be days where I have no idea how to do the job but I know Holy Spirit will lead me into the purpose and calling that he has prepared for me even before I was in my mother’s womb!

They call it a convergence point when what you do is what God has been preparing you to do for years; God is interested in the process and building character so it can take years before you start walking out the thing that God has been preparing you for but when that time comes, God will give back everything that was lost and will pour out blessings big time, all it takes is our willingness to partner with Him and humbling ourselves to whatever he wants to do through us. Being an open, willing vessel for Him to move and flow through.

 

Back in Texas. The land of cowboys, blue bell ice cream, and “yall”.


In actuality, I rarely see cowboys in Houston, at least where I live, but I do have 2 buckets of blue bell ice cream in my freezer (Rocky Road and Coffee), and Listeria is over for anyone that wants to tell me to stop eating Blue Bell. So stop telling me to stop eating Blue Bell! 🙂

Back in Texas, and have spent almost a month sitting at home restoring, and restoring turned into lack of motivation, then into boredom. I take boredom as a really good sign that I’m restoring well though because at least I have the motivation to get out and do fun things. The first 2 weeks, I didn’t want to meet with people nor did I care to leave the home. That was real emotional chaos because I love people. Today, I looked at the date and was shocked that it’s July 25. I got into Houston June 27. It has only been a month since I left Taiwan but it feels like a decade ago! It feels like FOREVER. I did get to see my friends, house church family, and just do life in Texas which is just simple, calm life. I don’t live in a room with 4 other girls, or a dorm with 25+ girls, nor am I digging through the Bible 40+ hours a week, but I did….

+ buy a bed, drawers, desk, hangers for my new room
+ enjoy lots of kale salads, chickfila, and blue bell,
+ basking in air conditioned carpeted home
+ see friends and family
+ go to a baby shower
+ go running around the neighborhood

One thing that has not changed is that I still drink tea daily. This is no surprise, because I love tea too much! Jesus has been REALLY good to me through this time. Within the month of July my family have been praying and fasting for my emotional recovery. I’m not only getting better emotionally, I don’t have insomnia anymore, AND my brain has healed tremendously! I incurred brain damage 8 years ago and in 1 month I’ve seen it restored almost 90%! The quickest healing I’ve ever seen! Praise Him, who is Healer! I know Jesus is going to heal it 100% soon. I really sense a shift in the season. I’m seeing Him slowly take me out of the wilderness and restoring me back to a place of freedom and opening new doors of opportunities that I could never have imagined. I can really resonate with the book of Job (although what I went through is not nearly as bad as what he went through), but I’m seeing Jesus restore everything I lost over the past 8 years. It’s a new season and it’s all happening in the year of Jubilee (based on the Jewish calendar). How fitting.

Some pics for your viewing pleasure.

My phone came back from the dead.


My phone died a few weeks back so I wasn’t able to upload any pics of the students, class room, and more fun things BUT my phone came back to life! It started working a few days after it died. I wonder if this was God showing me a 2016 example of Jesus death and resurrection haha. Ironically, we were on the book of Luke and learning about Jesus ministry, death, resurrection, and ascension. Maybe a God moment? 🙂

These few weeks have been tough as I battled stress of school work, eating healthy, and personal issues. I didn’t get much sleep at all for two weeks and one night I lied in bed but slept only 2 hours. I felt a very real spiritual warfare going on. I felt like the enemy was trying to distract me from focusing on His word and I was going through a lot self-condemnation which is totally not from God. I hit a breaking point a few days ago and just burst into tears. It seemed like such a silly thing to be crying about but emotionally and mentally, it just felt so real and difficult for me. I received prayer and talked to some classmates and am feeling a lot better.

A few other classmates have gone through a lot of strange things as well. It’s during these times that we realize how real the spiritual realm is and the enemy will do anything to stop us from reading the ALIVE and ACTIVE word of God! BUT, we’re not giving up! Continuing to press through, persevere and see God do great things. Please continue to keep me and my classmates in your prayers that nothing would distract us from studying His word. 

My weekly ministry changed because they needed a Chinese speaker at this one. Now, I’m helping to translate a kids english class Wednesday afternoons. We bring in Bible stories and the gospel into English lessons so the children get acquainted with the Word.

This week we are on the book of Acts. It is a POWERFUL book. I’ll post insight on it later. In the mean time, here are some pics of the classroom, prayer room, meal/tea times with friends, and the one time we hiked up a nearby mountain.

Blessings!

SBS – The first 3 weeks


I have survived the first 3 weeks of SBS! For most people, they may not understand what this actually means so let me give you a brief description of what YWAM calls 3 Week Seminar. The idea is to help students ease into the steps that are necessary to complete homework for each book. There are a series of steps that is supposed to allow students to understand the main history behind each book of the Bible and then go into a closer look of the book by doing the inductive method Bible study. The first week, we looked at the book of Titus, a really small book, just so the staff could lead us through it step by step. We spent almost 2 days just going over the background and then spent a few more days learning what key words or phrases to look for and how to ask good questions. It was at first pretty overwhelming since it’s the first time I’ve ever learned how to study the Bible in this way. It blew my mind that we could study the book of Titus for 1 week, even though it’s only 3 chapters long and only takes up 2 pages in my Bible, and in 1 small book, we could pull out so much. I finally understand how Pastors are able to preach for so long and go so deep with just a few verses.

In the first 3 weeks, we have completed Titus, Galatians, Ephesians, and Mark. We start the book of Luke next week. We also start ministry and work duties next week. I will be doing ministry at the Veterans Hospital with Clare leading the way. The staff gave us a list of ministries and asked us to pick our top 3 and they did their best to give us what we wanted so I’m so glad that I ended up with this one because it was my top choice for the sole purpose of being able to minister with Clare. She’s a fiery woman of God that just goes right into praying for the sick and sharing the gospel. She’s known on the base as this fearless evangelist. I remember clearly when she shared with us on the topic of evangelism a few months back while I was still in DTS (Discipleship Training School). She said she was sick and had to be in the hospital for 1 year. During that year she brought 500 people to know Christ. So, you can imagine, to minister with her is an absolute honor. Excited to see how God will move through this ministry over the next 3 months.

God has also been revealing a lot of areas where I have had wrong thinking. As we were going through the book of Mark, we saw in many instances that Jesus’ desire is that all would be saved. In one story, he healed a paralytic man by saying “your sins are forgiven”. He could have just healed him physically which he did but the emphasis was the fact that he forgave the man’s sins. The lecturer last week said “A healing is an external sign of an inward reality”. God cares about our heart attitude more than the healing itself. I’m not saying that God won’t heal people or doesn’t do it but the main focus shouldn’t just be on healing alone especially if heart issues are not dealt with. Many already know but some still don’t know, but I experienced severe brain damage in my early 20’s and God’s been so amazing in healing a lot of it, but I still struggle in comprehension and conversation and it created a huge fear and anxiety towards many things. Throughout my 20’s, I had prayed for full healing and was not seeing it. Near the later years of my 20’s I started getting upset and wondered if He really was as good as He says He is. I didn’t think it was fair that so many people in the Bible got healed and I didn’t see it happen in me. God dealt with my pride and childish behavior in DTS and I got over a huge hump. Now I know without a doubt that God is good! But this past week, God started dealing with me again. With Him it’s always an ongoing process. He started showing me that he cares more about my heart issues. I used to pray for healing daily while ignoring the deeper issues internally. It really hit home for me this week and I’m planning on working it out with God, processing with another person so it’s not only with God but there’s another witness. I think it’s important to speak out areas we need forgiveness in with another person to bring to light anything hiding in the dark.

Finally, I had a ton of pics that I wanted to include but my phone recently died so I lost all the photos. I’ll be getting a new phone soon so I can include pics in the next post!

Prayer Requests:
1) Pray that God gives me peace in anxiety and fear
2) Pray for boldness to do what He’s called me to do
3) Pray for my physical health (eating healthy, drinking enough water, working out consistently)

Thanks for your support and prayer!

Love,
Jenn

If you’d like to be a part of my support network, you can email me at jenniferyang86@gmail.com